Before I sat down to write this post, I debated how much I wanted to share and update you on our fertility journey. Then I realized the more I talk about it the more and more support I get and the less I feel alone. There are SO many other women (so many just in my city of Saskatoon, alone!) who are going through something very similar! So, I decided that I wanted to provide a detailed update of our journey. Please be warned that this post gets real and raw and I go into detail about some of my tests and experiences.
I’ve broken down where we’ve journeyed into a timeline since I wrote my last post.
I met with a gynecologist for an initial appointment and had an internal exam. At this point we began our testing for treatment of secondary infertility. This is a path I never, ever thought we would be going down. I have learned so much about secondary infertility and am continuing to learn as we go. I had no idea how common it was – did you know secondary infertility is actually more common than primary infertility?!
Bloodwork: I completed bloodwork throughout the month (bloodwork needs to be done on exact days of your cycle to determine hormone levels).
Pelvic ultrasound and internal ultrasound: I went into this appointment thinking it would be a walk in the park – how hard could an ultrasound on your belly area be? Was I ever wrong. I’m going to break down this test and my experience and feelings. One thing I’ve realized through this journey is that I was not prepared for how invasive the tests would be; and have heard from so many other women I think this is a common theme. So, in the vein of full disclosure let’s talk about the ultrasound.
Here’s me lying there on the bed getting my pelvic ultrasound done and then the tech says she needs to do an internal ultrasound to count my follicles – sure, no problem, except for the fact I am on day 3 of my period (which the tech knew)!! So, I’m like, “Hey I can totally come back – this doesn’t need to be done today.” and, “Are you sure you don’t want me to come back?” and, “Okay, so we are actually, actually doing this?!”
So, now I’m completely mortified getting this done. I’m lying on a puppy pad, and all I can think about is this pad being a total disaster when I get up and I am slowly dying inside…
Let’s not forget to include the fact that the internal ultrasound was pretty uncomfortable and quite painful because she had to maneuver the wand around inside me (DYING!!). Thankfully, the shock (and mortification) of the appointment overpowered my feelings of the pain because despite the pain all I could think about were the circumstances. Maybe I’m being overdramatic, but I left there feeling so weird! I did not expect the internal exam at all and did not imagine the appointment going the way it went! If I know I’m having an internal exam, I FULLY PREPARE (like, fully prep the area, LOL). Being caught off guard and not prepared was a bad combination.
Dye test: Appointment cancelled due to doctor not being available.
Dye test: The dreaded dye test is finally done – I was so happy to get this test over and done with!
It was not as painful as I anticipated, but my anxiety was 10/10 and I had to be very mindful to keep calm.
The morning of the test I had to do a pregnancy test to confirm I wasn’t pregnant before the test. A few days prior to the test I picked up a urine sample container and on the way to the hospital for the test, I stopped at my gynecology office to do the pregnancy test (not pregnant, btw).
Once at the hospital, I changed into the hospital gown and anxiously waited for the doctor. The doctor was in surgery so we waited two hours before I got in for my appointment.
Test time! Basically the dye test consists of placing a tube filled with dye inside your cervix and pushing the dye through your fallopian tubes to see if there are any blockages, polyps or other funny business going on in there. The most painful part of the test for me was when the dye went through; it felt like a strong contraction! Thankfully, it only lasted like 10 seconds!
The test was super fast – I was in the room for less than 10 minutes. Also, if you’re curious, there were no blockages or polyps for this girl! I was expecting the test to be worse, and while it was definitely uncomfortable, painful at times and anxiety provoking, the test was not nearly as bad as I expected..
So what’s next?
We are STILL waiting for Robin’s semen analysis. The requisition was put through in July and we are hoping he gets in soon because that is the last piece of testing for us. After he is done we will meet with our gynecologist and review all the tests and find out what the problem is. At this point, I’m feeling inpatient and wanting answers (hopefully I can get some soon!).
Thank you for reading and letting me share our journey with you! As always, if you have any questions or comments, please feel free to DM me!